F*ck Canadian healthcare.
I just had the worst personal medical experience at a clinic.
I got to a walk-in clinic near my apartment often, (I live in Markham, Ontario) I have yet to find a family doctor (I want a female one and there’s been no luck for a year I’ve been asking around.)
At this clinic there are three doctors. The wait times aren’t bad. I often see this one doctor who is okay but somewhat dismissive of my issues, especially when it comes to feminine and sexual issues. I spoke to him honestly about the pain I was having during sex, and my bad period cramps. I think I have endometriosis, and I’ve been struggling to get an appointment with a Gyno. Everytime I’ve mentioned this he’s brushed it off - have more foreplay, use more lube, you probably don’t have that, etc. is the kind of reaction I get. But whatever, I just passed it off as a male-doctor-to-female-patient kind of rhetoric.
I asked for a pap smear with a female doctor specifically at the clinic, no problem. I went to the papsmear appointment today to check for a variety of things - cervical cancer, hpv, the usual. I waited an hour. A stranger couple with an appointment ahead of mine mentioned to me that they were going to be late for something else, so I let them do their appointment first, no biggie. I waited another twenty minutes.
This doctor was an older Russian lady who I haven’t met before. She grabbed my hips and pulled me further down on the examination table, half naked, until my ass was practically hanging off the end. If you’ve ever had a papsmear before you know it’s already a pretty uncomfortable situation - half-naked in a cold, public room, with your feet up on these stirrups like you’re a barn animal being inseminated.
She put in the dilator roughly and quickly. I’ve had issues with sex my whole adulthood concerning pain, and having difficulty “opening up” due to past trauma with rape and other psychological issues, maybe physical (if I could see a damn Gyno I’d figure that out.) Anyways, it fucking hurt.
She snapped at me several times (maybe due to the language barrier she didn’t mean to snap, but regardless she came off cold and sharp), and ordered me to relax. A Russian lady yelling at you to relax doesn’t really do the trick. She insisted that if I don’t relax I will get scarring since she could see that my hole was tearing.
I eventually snapped back at her, saying, “I’m trying to relax, okay?! It really hurts.” She then apologized, and made a joke that if I “picture something fun it might not hurt as much.” She laughed after saying that, and I still wonder if she had made a sexual comment joking that I should imagine a penis inside me to help me relax.
After it was done she commented on my amount of discharge, saying I might have a yeast infection. I asked her if that was possible due to soap I use to clean that area, she shrugged her shoulders and said she doesn’t know. She left quickly, not bothering to speak with me anymore beyond “we’ll phone you with any results.” I looked at the samples on the table, and the blood inside the tubes, and realized I was bleeding down below.
I am done with Canadian health care. I am done with women’s health issues being disregarded. I am done with the astonishing lack of proper sexual care in this country.
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