I was beaten by my elderly parents a couple years ago because of a pregnancy scare (I am a 28 y.o. male), or rather a hidden pregnancy scare from when I was 17. The girl did not contact me about a child she had 9 months after having sex with me and the child had a very strong resemblance. For context, the girl would post several similar pictures out of either interest or shock-value. The assault resulted in a self-defense case against me so no charges were pressed on the assaulters. The court case included mental evaluation and no requirement to be on antipsychotics was ordered, and I was proven to be innocent. I have had a pinched ulnar nerve in my wrist that I have not been able to afford an MRI because it is not covered by my current insurance, and it has made working menial jobs very uncomfortable and non-productive, but I have been employed, mostly self-contract for fast food or in one experience as a lifeguard where the open water was effective in treating my wrist. Time windows in seeking employment have also been difficult because I have a disabled sibling that requires constant supervision, though that is not to say that I haven't been employed as a diversity hire because of this, mostly for self-contract labor. It has been very hard to find work in my condition, and I've absolutely had no time to continue school or purpose because I will mostly be responsible for my disabled sibling until my parents can no longer shelter he or I--- I've taken a graphic design course and physical education off-campus due to a mass stabbing on campus. I have studied many toxic traits about antipsychotic injections including abortive/sterilizing components, but my parents are forcing me to continue a monthly regimen with an out-of-network provider by way of threat. They have called the police to escort me to a hospital on several occasions against my will if I argue with them on the subject and because of my inability to find a different home it has been my only option to take the medical abuse. They have been convinced that amassing medical debt on my person as parents is functionally sound and I want to refuse further treatment with antipsychotics. It has been a huge waste of time and effort on my part and I don't think it solves the problem of being a participant in a section of society that has ill resource for my disabled sibling, making a younger sibling responsible and itemized as a similar impairment. In a teal deer type of way, how do I depose the method of treating the effects of responsibility fatigue on my person to a method where my sibling is sought after for treatment he could have used when he was younger before he became an obvious impairment to my social wellbeing? If I am this responsible for his well-being, why can't I make judgements on whether he is heavily sedated or put in a good group home when I am the target of bad behavior on his part, my parents, or healthcare choices to victimize me in retaliation?
I made an appointment to ask about anxiety medication. While awaiting the appointment i was having nerve pain (which is common for me) and a friend gave me a bottle of Gabapentin that they no longer use. It worked great, and also worked great on my anxiety and insomnia. I've been taking it daily for almost two weeks. I'd like to get this prescribed to me as opposed to antidepressants or benzos. But i feel weird telling a doctor I've been taking it, and don't want to be looked at as someone who takes drugs they're not prescribed and who's looking for more, especially since i know Gabapentin has the potential to be abused.