When I was a young teen, I had gastroparesis because i had p.o.t.s, and my doctor who I previously came to for benzodiazepine medication for mental illness, just blamed my ability to not eat on my mental illness and basically told me to just eat some cake 😍 very helpful with gastroparesis! Obviously not. He sent me home saying to try and eat more and I was like wow okay.
About 2 weeks later I went to him again because I was losing a lot of weight and can barely eat anything. I asked him for a liquid diet with those 300 calorie medical drinks, because I thought maybe my body would support a liquid diet better. He told me I was just too anxious and needed to get used more to my current therapists??? I don’t wanna be rude but did he get a brain parasite because whenever I’m telling him I literally can’t eat and would like to try liquid diet, he still blames it on my mental illness.
A few weeks later I came back again, I was 178cm at that time and weighed like 48kg, I looked like skeleton child. He basically said idk what to do with you and sent me to the child doctor in the hospital. The doctor in the hospital did truly have concern for me at least, and was so concerned about how skinny I was that she wanted to keep me in hospital and give me a feeding tube. I kinda lashed out at her because I was so mad that she wanted to give me a feeding tube without the fact I hadn’t even been allowed to try liquid calorie drinks. ( I get she wanted to bc she cared for me ) So she listened to me and ordered them for me.
Luckily with those bottles I could regain strength slowly and gained the weight back to a healthy weight eventually. I thank God i didn’t die, but the doctor who neglected me is still working and I don’t trust his ass for one bit. If you can see a child wither away and not do shit there is SOMETHING wrong with you. I wish I could write him a letter but I don’t like confrontation. And at this point it’s about 7 years ago I think but I still have trauma. Sorry for the vent but I needed to get it out.
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