Female - 25 years old - Canadian Citizen.
Let me be clear, I am grateful that Canadian health care doesn't cost me an arm and a leg.. Though the situation I'm in angers me as I can't get the help that I am in dire need of. I have been dealing with a form of Anxiety and Depression for at least 5 years. This past May there was a huge shift. It seems that after I experienced a Thunder Clap Headache my mental disorder took a turn for the worse. I was ordered to quit my job by my Doctor as I couldn't (still can't) get out of bed or do anything really without me feeling like my heart is going to jump out of my chest and me vomiting.
My depression has made me consider suicide more times than I can count. I have had more bloodwork in the last couple of months than I have in my entire life. I started to see a woman that performs tuning forks, sound healing and a swath of other techniques to help maintain my debilitating condition. She informed me that this might be something to do with my Endocrine system. So, I decided to talk to my doctor about getting tests done for it. She refused to do any testing other than an Ultrasound to "humor" me. I talked to another Doctor and she ordered a bunch of blood work to see how my hormone levels are. I received my bloodwork first, with that telling me my Cortisol levels are 3x higher than they are supposed to be as well as my Estrogen categorizing in the post menopausal stage... I'm 25 years old.. Skip a couple of weeks later and I get my Ultrasound results back. Low and behold they couldn't find my ovaries and they found 3 tumors on my liver (I'm an occasional drinker, nor do I drink much when I do).
My doctor now believes there's an issue. She ordered a CT of my entire abdomen and pelvic area as well as an X-ray of my chest as I used to be smoker. She believes that there may be another tumor somewhere else in my body that could be causing the influx of hormones being sent throughout my body. She doesn't want to rule out Cancer either. The X-Ray was easy to get in, I get to see the results tomorrow. The CT however is going to take two months to get in, that's even with my Doctor putting an urgency on it.. If she hadn't it would have taken upwards of 6 months.
I have been on 7 different medications over the past 2 years to try and manage my mental disorders. They work for a little while but about 3 months in I seem to build a tolerance and they stop working, even on the highest doses. Right now I am on Zoloft and Propranolol. They have both stopped working, I tell my Doctor over and over and over again that they are not working. She now ignores me.. So I decided to wean myself off of them. I feel exactly the same as I did when I was taking the medication.. Like absolute crap. It took me 3 hours to get out of bed, like it does every day. I sit at my keyboard with my heart pounding, feeling very weepy, the same cramps I've been feeling in my pelvic area for the past month and random shots of pain where my liver is.
The point of my rant is the fact that the Canadian Health Care System is a joke for the people that are experiencing extreme health issues. Most of the doctors just want to bring you in, prescribe you medication that probably wont work and push you out. The wait time to get tests done to see if you are dying or not are concerningly long. I never believed anyone with their stories of finding out they have Cancer when they are in the fatal stages because it took to fu**ing long for anyone to figure anything out, until now. I am at the point that I would rather be hundreds of thousands of dollars in debt in exchange for finding out if I am going to live or die sooner.
But Alas, I am just a regular Canadian. I am not important enough or wealthy enough to get the results and treatment that I need. So all I get to do is sit on my couch broke, scared, and on the verge of suicide daily because I just can't handle the fact that I just don't know what is wrong and if it is going to be fixed in time.
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